This sickness... rant post

I'm so demotivated!

My sickness is just getting worse! I hate it. I can't stay at home all day. I need to survive,  I need money to survive, I need work for money, I need to be healthy to work. Damn it!

I've been in bed all day, watching youtubes and resting.  I feel so helpless. I have no energy! I feel depressed and lost. I need to get better, and I could start by seeing a doctor (smart one), but I was really hoping I wouldn't have to.

Here's a poem
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I hate being sick
My body feels so weak
Get me a doctor, quicker
My life seems so bleak

My throat is on fire
Get this chainsaw out
Nothing to desire
Nothing to laugh or smile about

Stupid things I do
My brain's gone dumb
Life is a shoe
I need to have some fun
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I'm sorry for the ranty/ bitch post. I will have a positive post soon, maybe even tonight. I gotta focus on the positives and what I can do to help myself.

At least I've been sticking to my blog post a day :)
I dont know why the date on yesterday's post said I did it the day before. I'm just going to leave it and at the end of August I should have AT LEAST 31 POSTS on my blog. Get it going a bit.